原来我已经死了

上网孤狗自己的名字，发现了：

I've just been informed that my dear, dear friend Joan Kan has died. Just before leaving New York Peter and I went to see Joan and she wasn't feeling well...

原来我已经死了，我的灵魂还不愿承认这一点。她活在一个自己虚构出来的人生，催眠自己一切都非常美好，像每一个拒绝投胎的孤魂野鬼一样。